Who would have thought,
Avoiding is so much easier, Disappearing is so much more of an option of escape rather than a choice.
Now it is made known to me for certain that i want nothing, to know nothing.

And gone for now, feels alot like gone for good.
but i'm sure its true. you are gone for good.
Thank you tho.

Disappointment and Anguish

And the best way it is, is to get away, get away from all the distractions
You, never existed or simply you ceased to exist
I, am running out of time
The World, is going to fast and I can't pace
I, slowed down and threw time bombs away and now I'm left behind

What a high price to pay for experience
I will be gone then and till then I hope I would turn out fine and come back
Those eyes gazed back at this instant and at that moment, it dawn upon that pair of eyes that much has been lost and nothing has been gain. And the wave of sadness was intolerable, like breathing became the top priority, instead of a habit, an instinct.

I can't afford to lose you
And I would do anything to keep you by my side, with me.
So if pausing procrastination and focusing and putting aside everything else is gonna get that pair of eyes to where it wants to be one final day and if getting there means that you'd stay put, i would do it.
no matter what it takes, i have to keep you and i can't lose you.
and no matter what it takes, that pair of eyes saw the goal and argument for achievement isn't even debatable.